The Greener Side of the Fence: Winds of Change

Well, apparently it's been a year. Wow. How time flies. I started this blog mostly to have a place to unload my thoughts about infertility. Even though I had my beautiful boy at the time, I still felt infertile. There were complications following his birth that made it unlikely I would conceive again. And that was on top of the issues we already had that made 5 cycles of IVF and 2 miscarriages necessary to conceive him. Though I was blissful to have even succeeded once, I was still very hurt by the thought of never having another child. For one, I was an only child and hated it. And secondly, I wanted to be able to decide when we were done, not have it decided for me. So even having succeeded once, I was angry about our infertility.

Now I have my two. My son and my daughter. My improbable perfect family. I am content. I cannot say that we are done trying (and I also cannot say that we'll ever try again), however I do know that I can live my life happily and peacefully regardless of whether more children are in our future. Infertility will always be part of the mother I am and the person I am. I will never forget how painful our journey was. But I also would not change it now that I know the outcome. I am no longer angry. Thus, I've not had much to say for the past year. Life has been chugging along at a chaotic, happy pace.

So instead of abandoning the blog, I've decided to take it in a bit of a different direction. From angry infertile to busy mom. I know that there are a billion and one mom blogs out there, but it's not as if more than two people will ever read mine and mostly I am writing as a way to keep my thoughts and memories about this time in our life as a family. I am trying to figure out if it is possible to password protect the blog. I will be posting pictures of the kids and also using their names, so I feel more comfortable having a password.

So, let's get this party started. A few pics from our recent trip to Toronto:

To kick things off: