Well if I was feeling bad about not feeling bad, I am feeling bad enough now to feel better. We got the results of the karyotype back today. At the lab that did it, 60% of karyotypes from miscarriages come back abnormal. Of those, 2% have more than one abnormailty. Meet the 2%. Our baby girl had both one X chromosome (Turner's syndrome) and 3 chromosome 21s (Down's Syndrome).
One one hand, this is good news. It means that it's not the uterine scarring that caused the problem. Yet it raises as many questions as it answers. Considering that it took 13 embryos and 2 chemical pregnancies to finally have my son, and now this, it makes me wonder if we have an egg quality or sperm quality problem. Of course, both of those can be overcome easily by using donor gametes. This is not to say that the decision to use donor gametes is an easy decision. But, the most important things for us right now are having another pregnancy and another child.
Still, receiving the news has turned on the waterworks. I am sad for my poor baby girl who never had a chance at life, but happy that she did not have to suffer. I am sad for the loss of a dream and a desire. I am sad that this likely means facing more invasive therapies rather than the chance at another freebie. Which makes me sad for our bank account. Today I am sad.
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