PUPO

It means "pregnant until proven otherwise." It means, to IVFers, that the embryos are in and until the blood pregnancy test there is a chance that you're pregnant. My natural inclination is to think of myself as NPUPO (not pregnant...). Go about my normal routine (you know, the fifths of whisky, the late night parties, the 2-pack-a-day habit, etc.) and try to completely forget the possibility. I mean, looking at this objectively, the things we have going against us are:

31 days of unopposed estrogen stimulation to get a decent lining
By "decent," I mean "horrible"
The possibility of uterine scarring remaining
Two lousy embryos that I am sure were still partially frozen
Me not taking it easy after the transfer AT ALL
3 frozen transfers under our belt, none successful

And here's what we have going for us:

Um... uh... um...

BUT, I am attempting to stay positive. Because the truth of the matter is that with infertility treatments there is no forgetting, there is no pretending that everything is normal and there is no way to protect your heart from the disappointment when it doesn't work. So you might as well enjoy the possibility while it still exists.

My husband has implored me to write something normal in my blog. He wants me to stop being so dreary and try to be more of a "dancing through fields of lilies while bluebirds sing on my shoulder" kind of gal. Huh. I thought I was funny. Guess not.

This past weekend, we made a trip to his family's farm. It is near the town we are moving to next month. We now have a house under contract and got to walk through it again. It's a new construction and is not done yet. But we are really excited about it. It's a 2-story in a neighborhood with a pool, tennis courts, basketball courts and hiking trails. It's on over an acre of land. It has an open floor plan, an awesome kitchen, custom cabinets, lots of built in storage, hardwood floors, faux paint finishes, a media room... It's cool. Right now I only have pics on my husband's cell phone, but next time I'll bring the camera and post some. (Was that normal enough?)

6 days until beta. Tick... tock... tick... tock...